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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Presents in the Bathroom


I knew exactly where my parents were keeping the Christmas presents.  We lived on the fourth floor in an apartment with three bedrooms and two bathrooms.  We had a nice view of the neighborhood playground out our front window.  As for the bathrooms, you could only get to one of them through my parents’ bedroom.  That’s where they kept the presents. 

I didn’t know that at first.  I just had to go to the bathroom.  I had been in the living room reading a book.  My mom was in the kitchen baking something, my dad was at work, and my sister was playing with some of her dolls in our bathroom.  Maybe she needed the sink for a “pool” or something.  Either way, I had to go, so I went to use my parents bathroom. 

When I walked in I was pretty surprised to see toys, clothes and books stacked all around, on top of the toilet, under the sink, all over the fluffy rugs that covered the floor.  Then there was the bathtub.  My mind spun with thoughts of what could be in there.  I pulled back the shower curtain.  That’s when I saw the staircase.  It had never been there before, but it was definitely there now.  It kind of twisted a bit so I couldn’t see all the way down, but I could see light coming up from somewhere below, so I figured I’d better check it out.  I thought about going to get my sister, but she was pretty cranky when I told her I needed to use the bathroom.  Besides, I could always show her later.

I took a step onto the staircase.  It was made out of wood with brass pins holding it together.  It creaked a bit, but it felt solid.  I took another step and then another and before I knew it I was looking up at the distant light above me coming from the bathroom that was now out of sight.  I have to admit I was pleasantly surprised by the smell.  You never know what you’re going to get when you climb down below your bathroom floor, but everything had a lovely mint aroma and the air was fresh and crisp, but not cold.  At least it didn’t feel cold. 

Everything seemed to bend down there.  After I reached the bottom of the curvy staircase, I had reached a hallway of some sorts.  It too bent a bit, so I couldn’t see what was “around the bend” as they say, but I could see fairly well (there were small torches mounted to the wall with lovely little mint flames burning evenly) and I could even hear the sounds of something echoing gently towards me from off in the distance.  I walked tentatively at first, but as I got used to this new environment, my confidence grew.  Pretty soon I was walking steadily down the hall.  The torches lit the corridor, the air was warm and the peppermint smells (turns out the torches were rough hewed candy canes) were starting to mix mint with the smell of chocolate, and a hint of baked cookie.  The whole thing was making me hungry for a sweet snack.

As I rounded the curve the sounds became clearer.  I could hear singing and clanking.  The voices were strange, not like my mom or my dad’s or even my sister’s for that matter, but they sounded friendly.  The light at the end of the tunnel grew brighter and brighter and quite suddenly I found myself standing at the edge of the opening into a large, bright room full of action, excitement and elves.  Now I’d seen elves on television and at the mall but never in real life.  They looked normal enough as far as elves go—like very small grown ups—but I was surprised how normal they looked just as far as people go.  They were talking and working.  Some were joking and horsing around.  Some were frustrated and stressed.  But they were all focused intently on what they were doing, even if they were playing around.  In some cases, it looked like the ones that were playing around were working even faster than the serious ones, because their heart was in it.  Suddenly I realized that I was just standing there in the wide open.  None of the them had seen me (or at least no one had taken notice of me) but I quickly crouched down by the edge of the opening, close to the floor.  I still wanted to watch them, but didn’t want to be seen.  I didn’t feel in danger, but somehow I felt that if they saw me they might get angry or perhaps they would run away and hide.  I certainly didn’t want that happen.

So I crouched down to get comfortable in my new “hiding spot”.  That’s when I saw the baskets.  The elves were starting to gather everything together and cleaning up their work stations.  As they moved about and cleared their work, I saw several baskets with names on them.  Many of them were kids I knew from school, but not all.  I blinked hard when I saw the one with my name on it.  Or rather, the name of our family.  Then before I could notice what was in it, an elf stepped in the way of my view, threw a small cover over it and picked it up.  A few other elves were picking up baskets and carrying their completed projects.  Some of them were not, but what I did notice now was that they were walking directly toward me.  I froze looking straight at them, but none of them seemed to look back at me.  They were too busy talking one with another. 

I scrambled to my feet and started back down the hall, the way I had came.  They were behind me and moving faster.  Their chatter and singing hadn’t become any more intense, but they were clearly moving fast.  I guess I had underestimated their little legs.  I started to run.  The torches were now flying past my head as I ran.  I stopped every few moments to see to see if they had stopped, but every time I did they had gained ground and seemed to be just around the bend.  The mint air was stinging my lungs slightly because I was breathing fast and hard, but I turned again and ran.  This time I didn’t stop and listen.  I reached the bottom of the staircase and started climbing.  Even while I was running I could hear them.  They were on the stairs too, and they were clearly fast climbers.  I started to take the stairs two at a time.  I could now see the bathroom light up above.  It was getting closer, but so were the elves.  I ran and ran, tripped once and banged my shin, but quickly got back up and then tripped again only to find that, in trying to stop my fall, I’d reached out and grabbed the shower curtain.  I pulled myself up into the bathroom.  The unwrapped presents were still scattered everywhere.  I tip-toed through them trying very hard to not touch them or knock anything over.  I made it to the door and finally had my hand on the handle.  Then I did stop.  I could hear them.  They were coming.  I had to decide what I was going to do.  They were right there.  I could smell the mint air pushing up as the whole group of them reached the top of the staircase.  Then I made my decision.  I turned the knob, stepped out into my parents bedroom and closed the door behind me.  Then, silence.  Absolute silence.  I leaned against the door, trying to hear, but there was nothing.  I stepped back onto the edge of my parents bed, sat down and rubbed my shin.  It hurt.  Then I heard something from inside the bathroom, like a box falling over and low voices—whispering but intense—like someone chastising someone else for being clumsy, and then nothing.  Silence.  I tip-toed out of the room.  I went across the hall and got my sister.

“Come here.  I want to show you something,” I told her.

“I’m busy.  Leave me alone,” she said.

“I know where the Christmas presents are.”

“You what?”

“I know where the Christmas presents are.  Come here.  I’ll show you.”

Mom was still baking in the kitchen.

My sister was skeptical, but she put down her dolls and followed me.  She had a scowl on her face as if to say, “If this is some stupid joke I’m going to punch you.”  (I know my big sister loved me somewhere deep down inside.  She just didn’t always know how to show it.) 

“You have to be very quiet,” I explained.  “I don’t think they want us to see them.”

“The presents?” she asked.

“No.  The elves.” 

Her scowl turned to rolling eyes.

“I’ll open it just a bit and you can peak in.  But be quiet.”

I could tell she was getting tired of this, so I quickly but quietly cracked open the door.  I nodded my head as if to say ‘look inside’.  She did, and then held absolutely still.  She didn’t say anything, then she looked me straight in the eyes and punched me in the arm.

“Hey!” I yelled.  “That hurt.”

“Stop bothering me,” she said and then walked out of the room.

I opened the door gently and peaked in, then I opened it all the way.  I walked in to see the whole room.  There were towels, soap, shampoo, a few magazines in a holder next to the toilet and the fuzzy rugs that covered the floor, but no presents.  I pulled back the curtain on the shower.  There was a nice porcelain tub with a big metal drain.  I sat down on the toilet lid.  I pulled my leg up under my chin and rubbed my shin.  A bruise was starting to appear.  I was still hungry for a cookie. 

I walked down the hall into the kitchen.  I didn’t even bother saying anything to my sister.  I got one of the mint chocolate cookies my mom always made around this time of year, told my mom I was going to playground and headed outside.  I walked down the stairs.  Four flights.  I had never thought of it before, but they kind of spiraled downward as you went from floor to floor.  I got outside.  It was cold and crisp, but the sun was out and I felt warm.  I started to walk across the field from our building to the playground.  It was a wide open field of grass so it struck me as strange that I was walking in a round about way to get to it.  I wasn’t trying, but I found myself walking in a long curving arc toward the playground.  It was cold so there weren’t any other kids outside playing, so I had the place to myself, but I could hear small voices singing somewhere in the distance.  Maybe somebody had their window open and the tv was on.  I puttered around the playground not really wanting to play, but not wanting to get punched in the arm again by my sister.  I went down the bending slide.  I went up and down on the see-saw as best I could by myself and then I just sat on the swings, rocking back and forth gently. 

As I swung back and forth, I couldn’t help but notice that everything smelled slightly like peppermint.  I sat there for a moment and just thought. The singing had a stopped.  Then I looked down at the ground.   I'd always wondered where playgrounds came from.

I went to the sand box and started digging.

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

My Christmas Rabbit

It was parked in the lot behind the apartment building.  All I had to do was write a check for $500 to Chad’s grandparents and it was mine.  I was sixteen, so it was the biggest check I’d ever written.  It pretty much wiped out my savings, but I did it.  My dad had warned me buying it was only the first expense of many.  There would be insurance, gas, maintenance, ... yeah, whatever.  I was sixteen and I wanted a car, my own car, not the big brown dodge van my parents drove.  So now I was the proud owner of a small poop brown 1974 Volkswagen Rabbit with only one head light, windshield wipers that didn’t work and a radio with punch buttons to skip to the “pre-programmed” radio stations of my choice. 

It had other features, although they were all unfortunately just as unimpressive.  The stuffing in the two front seats had disintegrated or decomposed, I couldn’t tell.  All I knew was that inside the fabric covering, there was a metal frame in the shape of a car seat and that the fabric covering this frame was basically a sack for all the stuffing particles that had fallen to the bottom.  (Whenever I would tip it forward to let someone in the backseat, a few particles would work through the cracks onto the floor.  To this day I don’t know what that material was.)  But anyway, it wasn’t  anything a couple of tropically themed seat covers couldn’t fix.  Blue and white lantana leaves juxtaposed with the maroon interior and brown paint job looked pretty smoking.

So I pulled the car out of its spot, made my way to the main road and came to a stop.  Now I knew a little bit about driving stick shift, but I would put the emphasis on “little”.  I’d just successfully maneuvered my way through the parking lot in first gear. Now came a six lane road, three lanes in each direction.  LA & the DC area are on record as having some of the countries worst traffic.  I was living in the DC area at time, at rush hour in particular, on Christmas Eve to be specific.  Yes, I had just bought a car for myself on Christmas Eve; a true display of the Christmas spirit if I ever saw it.  (Give me a break, I was sixteen.)  But as I slowly eased off the clutch and tried to pull into traffic, fear quickly replaced the Christmas spirit.

Somehow I managed to pull into the very right lane with the grace of a bucking bronco and sweat was beginning to bead on my forehead.  All I can say is “buyers remorse.”  It was dusk, so I had my headlight on.  Gratefully it was not raining, but I still had a distance to cover.  My mission:  drive to the DMV, register my car, and make it home alive.  The big obstacle:  The Mall.  Yes, in my compulsive, sixteen year-old wisdom, I had decided to go out and purchase my first car on Christmas Eve, drive it past the shopping mall at rush hour, wait in line at the DMV where I would get to pay my first post-purchase car expenses (thanks, Dad), and then make it home in time for dinner.  Brilliant. 

All was going well at first.  All green lights.  Then the “wave” turned red.  I stopped at the intersection.  To my right was the mall.  In my rear view mirror I saw a sea of headlights.  In front of me were twelve lanes of traffic converging.  “You can do this,” I told myself.  The light turned green.  I let out the clutch.  Then everything went into a combination of super fast slow motion:  Bucking bronco.  Stall.  Sweat.  Restart the engine.  Sea of headlights.  Six lanes.  Honking.  More honking.  Merry Christmas to you too!  Rev the engine.  Let out the clutch.  Bucking bronco.  Buck, buck, buck!  Stall.  Sweat.  Light turns red.  Crap!  Sweat. 

As I sat in the middle of the intersection, traffic from my right slowly made its way around me.  I think that’s when the buyer’s remorse really started to take hold.

One more cycle of traffic lights, a few curse words, and some other holiday wishes later, I pulled into the DMV parking lot.  Here my true, mature colors revealed themselves. 

“Dad,” I said into the pay phone (because they still had payphones back then.)

“What, son?”

“I don’t know if I want this car anymore.”

“Why’s that?”

“Because it sucks!”

Christmas Eve indeed.  He talked me off the ledge, I registered the car and I made it home for dinner.  Mission accomplished.

The next morning we were opening presents.  (I’m sure I got gifts for my family, I just don’t recall what they were.)   My parents got me a new stereo for the car.  No wonder my dad talked me into it!  I spent the day installing it.  U2 never sounded so sweet!  Now I had wheels, tunes, seat covers and a head light.  Windshield wipers would have to wait, but they were coming.  I was so excited.  Now I just had to show it to my friends.  But it was Christmas day.  You don’t go visiting your friends on Christmas, at least not when you’re a teenager.  I guess it’s unchristian.  The day is reserved for boring relatives.  But I was a quick thinker.   My good friend Lauren lived around the block…and she was Jewish!  Perfect.  I was down the driveway as fast as my clutch would let me. 

Parked in the cul-de-sac I let Lauren lay her eyes on the sweetness that was my vintage, music pumping Rabbit.  She got in and I took her for a drive.  My buyer’s remorse was gone.  This was it!  This was the life!  Freedom!  Then Lauren asked me, “Do these seats have any padding in them?”  I’d have to get around to that I guess.  My dad was right…as usual.  Merry Christmas indeed.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Missing Mom


My wife had gone grocery shopping for bit.  I tried to explain that to our three year old son, but he wasn't having any of it.  After a few tantrums and a few attempts on my part to calm him down, we walked together to the front door.  I opened the door and he just laid down across the threshold, his face on the doormat, his feet inside our apartment.  I rolled my eyes.  "Don't you want to come back inside?" I asked.  No response.  Perhaps he found the outside air refreshing.

I slowly started to close the door on him, hoping this would prompt him to his feet and back inside.  No such luck.  He just whimpered and whined a bit and staid right where he was.  I rolled my eyes again and relented.  Finally he stood up on his feet and stepped out into the stairwell.  I eased the big heavy door closed behind him, thinking the idea of being locked outside our apartment would scare him back in.  Again, no such luck.  The door was closed.  He was on the outside.  I was on the inside.

About three seconds past.  I couldn't resist.  I slid the metal peep hole cover aside and spied on him standing outside the door. Small, pudgy, innocent…and absolutely still.

There are three apartment doors on our landing and, although he was standing sideways so I could see his profile, he wasn't looking at any of the other doors or the stairs.  He just stood there, a little wrinkle on his forehead, looking upward slightly at nothing in particular.  Then he asked quietly, "Mommy, where are you?"  There was something so pure and honest about it. This time I didn't roll my eyes.  As a grown up I knew where she was more or less.  I knew the route to Costco and back.  I had her cell phone and knew I could call her if I wanted to.  But all he knew was to look up at the sky, say his mother's name and ask where she was.  Being apart from Mom can be hard.

I felt a little guilty for spying on his quiet moment of desperation, but the moment didn't last long.  He started to walk down the hall--out of the narrow view of the peek hole--so I opened the door to follow him.  We spent the next couple of minutes walking up and down the hall, pushing elevator buttons and enjoying the coolness of the tile.  However, Mommy didn't magically appear.  I tried again to explain where she was, we puttered around some more and--after a few minutes--he was ready to go back inside, so we did.

A while later my wife did come home and we were all happy to see her, especially our little guy.  We all miss mom when she's gone.  It's nice to be back together.